This is a place where you are encouraged to be your authentic self—the pure consciousness that you are and everything that you’re originally made of and the way you express yourself in the human, physical form. This is a place where you are encouraged to honor the uniqueness of your path, acknowledge what gives you joy and live the purpose that drives your life. This is about following your inner guidance and passion and using your talents and gifts to give meaning to your life and make a difference in others as a result.
Subtle Awakening was born out of my desire to share my life experiences and spiritual journey and help those who are going through the same. It is for those who are wanting to break away from the mold and follow their own unique path in this world, to use their gifts and express the passion that is deep within their soul. I welcome you to this sacred space where you are free to be who you are and walk the path that has been waiting for you all this time.
You are probably looking for labels that describe who I am. I can’t blame you because, after all, that’s how we’ve been raised and conditioned in our society—to slap on countless labels on ourselves and others in the feeble attempt to understand each other but end up putting a divide between us that leads to inequality, discrimination, hate, anger and fear. So, I endeavor to get away from those labels and remove as many of those that had been “given” to me by myself or others, whether consciously or unconsciously, voluntarily or involuntarily. So, if you’re wanting to know more about me based on labels, here it is, albeit reluctantly.
By society’s designation, I am a female cisgender. I am very introspective and process internally everything I observe externally. By that criterion, the people who hold the label makers in this world tagged me as an introvert but they can’t decide whether I’m an INTJ or ISFP. Maybe I’m both. But I say, I’m neither. I would rather that I wasn’t “classified” into a type or be made to fit into a box. I don’t agree with all these words they assigned to me not because I think they’re bad or wrong but because they set limitations on who I am, what I can do and what I can be.
I’ve had my own struggles within the discriminating parameters of gender, race and personality—and everything in between—as defined between different cultures. I also turned my back on my gift and true passion because I was told at a very young age that I need to do something that pays the bills. In case you’re curious what that passion was, it was writing. Writing for me is a way to share my stories and express whatever is brewing in my heart through my fingers instead of through my mouth. What I cannot express in spoken words, I bring to life on paper. That’s what keeps my energy going. It’s what gives life to my soul.
In a nutshell, I am just an ordinary person sharing her story in bits and pieces. We all have a story to tell because we all go through stuff in life and so feel free to share yours as I share mine. In my opinion, I’m nobody special—by that I mean, I am no more special than you and anyone else because we are all made of the same stuff.
Although I do not possess the pre-defined qualities that are supposed to make a woman “like me” successful, I proved everybody wrong anyway prompting them to say, “How the hell did she do that?” But I hit that proverbial glass ceiling at some point. However, even before I got there, “someone” was already tapping on my shoulder as if saying, “Excuse me, my name is misery and I am here to stay until you get back to your passion and gift that you left collecting dust in your closet. Just sayin’.”
I kept ignoring that “someone.” I was standing on top of a cliff and it’s telling me to jump and I was scared s***less. It’s telling me it will be alright but I didn’t believe it. Until one day, it decided to push me off the cliff uttering the words, “You’ve waited long enough, so let me help you.” I went into free fall. Initially I was angry. And then I felt hurt. Then I switched back and forth between excited and afraid. That “someone,” in its voiceless way, kept reminding me, “You need to learn how to relax and let go because before the fall is over you will begin to see where you’ll land and you’ll see that there’s no reason to be afraid.” It’s like being pushed out of a plane while I felt like I wasn’t ready yet. But I was pushed because that someone knew I was ready. I was simply too afraid to see that clearly. And as I fall into the open sky, I screamed and cursed until I was blue in the face but then I realized how beautiful the experience was and the best thing that I could do is to enjoy it.
In the last few years of my “career,” I mentored many younger professionals and women who aspired to grow themselves professionally. As I was “divinely removed” from that life, I decided to walk the path less travelled. There were things that helped me to understand the uniqueness of my own path, my gift and my purpose. Through mentoring, I hope to help others who are also asking the bigger, deeper questions as I was and find their own answers.
The journey inward is not for the faint of heart. It’s a lot of hard work but the rewards are priceless. You grow in great proportions. You evolve into a person that can never be shaped through the pursuit of the material. You turn into someone who trusts the one person you could always count on—you. You become a person who knows that not only are you enough, you are complete. You realize that you are perfect as you are, the way you were born in this world.
I help others through a been-there-done-that approach. I provide assistance to those who has gone through similar experiences as me. Experience is the best teacher, as it goes, and I wouldn't prefer a coach or mentor who has not gone through situations like mine. I don’t claim to have all the answers. I am a spiritual traveler on this planet just like everyone else. By sharing my story and what I go through, it is my wish to help those who are on the same journey and make them see that they are not alone and that there are those like them out there. It is my hope that you’d find the inspiration, motivation, hope, courage and the determination you need to move forward with your life, find your purpose, and live as your true, authentic self.