It's official. I'm having another brain dump. What the hell is brain dump, you ask?
A brain dump is a state where you reset yourself when you're experiencing a mind overload. In simple terms, you are thinking too much and you need to get rid of all that toxic junk in your head before you go completely bonkers.
I used to be baffled by this phenomenon. It is like a chain of disastrous events that lead to a nuclear meltdown. that ends up with me wondering, "What the hell is happening to me?" And like a true blue human being, I tend to chastise myself for being in that position in the first place. "You're better than this," I would usually say to myself. But then, I realized, there really is nothing to worry about.
You see, int the same way that we need to take a shower to keep our body clean, brush our teeth to keep them strong and healthy and take a dump to get food waste out of our system, we need a brain dump to keep our mind, well, sane.
I love my body.. It gives me a warning whenever my mind goes on overdrive. But despite my morning meditations, the things that I go through each day inevitably take their toll on me. Compound that in days, weeks, months, or god forbid, years and you got yourself a meltdown. What does look like exactly?
For me, my whole system goes out of whack like an emergency siren on full blast. I become confused and second guess myself. I become unsure as to what to do. My left brain is fully engaged and making a choice turns into hell. I feel uninspired and overwhelmed. Most of the time, I can't even sleep. It all turns into a cycle of negative self-talk. And since thoughts can lead to emotions, you also start to feel crap.
That's when I know it's time to unplug. Nothing too dramatic. Just step away from my laptop and do something else like weeding in the garden or taking a short walk around the block--anything that would force my mind to reboot and allow myself to reconnect to my heart center. To me, this is the most important.
When I am 'heart-centered,' I am more inspired and creative. I am organized and efficient. Everything flows and I am able to make decisions more easily. I am more flexible and most of all, my actions feel guided. I feel really connected.
So, whenever I recognize the signs of a meltdown, I simply do a brain dump. No guilt, no blame, no drama. It's just a cycle. I inhale, and so now I must exhale.